Well hey there.

Hi!

Once again, it's been a while. I honestly get sick of saying that, but it's always a good indication of how my life is going the less I write in here! I've been happily letting my life do exactly that, just happen. I'm appreciating what is infront of me and the little quirks that come along to make up my charming little life.

In doing so, I have found some weird "inner peace" with just being me. I am enjoying small things like the drive home from work and how accomplished I feel and stoked that I've got all night to do nothing. Whilst I've been focusing on myself and relaxing, Louis has slowly worked his way in to my life and my feelings toward Anthony have slowly walked out of my life. I can successfully say I'm over Anthony and that we are currently "friends". Not your every day best buds that hang out, but an odd text message and a chat if we see each other is the kinda thing we're going for. So far so good.

As for Louie...
Well the past week we have gone from friends to something boderlining a couple. We have been hanging out for a couple of months now and I'd get a crush on him, then let it go, then get it again and it felt like he was never going to make a move... then when he finally did kiss me, it's like all rules were broken and we got really close, really fast. I've never gotten this comfortable with someone so quickly. However, on the contrary, I am not planning to let this get serious at all. By no means do I want another serious relationship, or bluntly, another Anthony. But! We did go away for the weekend and had an amazing time which left Louis asking me last night, "so are we a thing?". Without thinking I said, "I guess so!". I'm still not quite sure what it means, but I'm hoping it's not a relationship or "boyfriend/girlfriend", instead just "we're together"?

Tonight Anthony asked if we were something, I told him the truth. He seemed alright. Who knows what he really thinks. I feel guilty sort of, but life happens and I can't stop someone from coming in to my life and making me feel a certain way. I did all I could for Anthony. Throughout my decision process I have kept his feelings in mind... weighed out pros and cons and how he would feel etc. Not necessary considering what he's put me through, but that's just the sort of person I am. At the end of the day I'd be shattered if he had another girlfriend by now, but I guess if I was the one that ended it with him I wouldn't have that right- would I?

Louie is lovely. I don't want to get attached considering I may move in a year back down south and I still believe Luke is the one for me so in no way am I thinking long term. Keep it light and breezy baby!

I'm very happy anyway, and that's the main thing isn't it? Just living each day as it comes, enjoying everything about it. I'd really love to get fit now that everything else is falling in to place. I've set my alarm for 6:30 so hopefully I can motivate myself to get out of bed and haul my ass to the gym.

::Sigh:: I love these moments in life where everything is ok.