The beginning of the end.

The last month has been a trial to say the least.
I've tried my hardest to stay positive and it has really benefited me. I scored a job at Jay Jays which I'm really excited about. It's probably the "coolest" place to work in Innisfail (being a small rural town and all) and I figure I'm that trendy upbeat person that will just fit right in there. Not only is my boss awesome, but Jay Jays is apart of The Just Group, a company that owns Dotti, Diva, Sportsgirl, Portmans, Just Jeans and Jaqui-E. If I ever want to move anywhere, my chances of getting a transfer are huge! I've never worked in retail before but I have a feeling it's going to be my niche'. I love clothes and fashion and dressing up, hopefully I can be a manager one day and perhaps a store owner?? Who knows.

Things with Anthony, like always, are touch and go. We have enjoyed living together even though I haven't unpacked and made myself "at home" yet. We spoke in bed last night about how I'm talking to my Mum again and if things go well I could move back in there. He stopped me and questioned why I wouldn't stay with him. I told him we hadn't really talked about it as a long term thing and he said he's enjoying it and actually admitted it's not really the "right circumstances"- his place is just a small granny flat on his Dad's property. But still, I don't mind it. I've grown to like it and we don't pay rent or electricity so it's a big help. So that was surprising.

I've also been getting really upset and insecure with Anthony lately, probably because I've been in such a bad way. I spoke to my Mum and she told me to stop taking it so seriously and chill out. And I have. I've backed right off and what happens, he comes crawling. In bed he whined that he needed me and to hug him and hold him. I asked him, "Since when do you need me?" And he said, "Nine months and 23 days ago" which is when we started dating, it made me laugh and I thought it was really cute. He also said I've been distant lately. It's funny how guys notice when they're not getting attention but they don't notice when they're getting it. Ha! I'll never figure them out.

So basically things are looking up, right up. I've scored a cool new job that pays well, but I can still get money off the government to help my bank balance flow. I'm going to Japan in nine weeks with my family and most importantly my boy. It'll be our first Christmas together and our one year anniversary and what makes it so great is it'll be snowing.
For the first time this year I'll be on my own two feet and not depending on my parents. I'm a little bit proud of myself for staying positive and keeping strong. Afterall, you have to endure the sour to enjoy the sweet.