Over.

Last week, seven days ago to be exact, I finally broke up with Anthony and walked out for the last time. There is only so much crying I can do. As you can tell by my entries in the last few months, we have been on and off for a long time. And, the blame always got put on me when infact I was trying SO hard to make it work that it simply couldn't be me. Anthony never tried. He did what he considered to be "enough", and beyond that he was a stiff mute. Nothing, or no one could suck what is needed from him to have a growing, loving, everlasting relationship. And I had to stop kidding myself.

It's always the same old story for me and I bet it's the same for many girls/women out there; You meet a new guy. They act so innocent and different to all the others to make out to you that they'll be different (compared to your last boyfriend, whom you're still recovering from). For the first two to three months (even four if you're lucky), they will be the best boyfriend you've ever had. So what do you do? You go ahead and fall in love with them around the fourth, fifth month mark and that's where it all starts going wrong. They slacken off, reckon they're doing all they can, blaming you for it not working because you're unhappy you're not getting treated how you should be treated. And if you continue to stay, then you're just in denial that they'll change because honestly guys don't. They don't know what they've got til it's gone so you need to run, run far away. And if you're lucky and he is in fact right for you, he will fight to get you back no matter how much you resist. Otherwise, you just keeping moving forward, learn from this and never look back. And the next time you meet a guy that swears they will give you the world, don't be so coy and test drive him for a few months before you fall.

I'm actually happy to say, I'm doing fine. Because we broke up on a Wednesday night, by the time the weekend came I was missing him. We had been talking but hadn't seen each other. So we organised to hang out on Sunday "as friends". It clearly didn't work. We spent a couple of hours together and got in to an argument which resulted in him going home. We both apologised and tried later on to hang out that night. But it's an empty resentful hang out and no one is happy when the person has to leave. It was a stupid idea, but I was upset and not thinking logically at all. When he got home we argued on the phone for an hour and he hung up on me. It was the last final knife through the heart. He messaged me ten minutes later apologising for hanging up on me. Meh, so what. Apologise for treating me like shit for the past six months maybe. I haven't spoken to him since and it's now Thursday. Monday night he spoke to me on Msn, again apologising for hanging up. He got the hint I wasn't talking to him and he went offline. Tuesday he tried ringing me, I was meant to go to dinner with him for his Mum's birthday but I pulled out because I didn't want to give him the satisfaction. Yesterday, nothing. And I'm sure there will be a whole lotta nothing from now on. He's too stubborn to admit he wasn't the greatest boyfriend, and he's never chased me in his life... so I'm happily moving on.

Guys are getting at me left, right and centre but I've honestly had enough of the foul species. I'm going to have fun and live my life and if someone one day finally proves they are actually worthy of this heart of mine, maybe I'll give them a second glance.

Cause if you like it, then you shoulda put a ring on it. Don't be mad once you see that he want it. ;)